Thursday, August 12, 2010

Hoping for a happy ending...

I used to think pregnancy meant a healthy little baby nine months later, but now I know that’s not always the case. My last three pregnancies ended not long after they began, leaving me with tears of disappointment over what might have been. The one before last almost took my life. I drove myself to the hospital in the middle of the night because I just knew there was something wrong – I felt so incredibly bloated and I couldn’t sleep – and two minutes after arriving I collapsed from internal bleeding. My fallopian tube had ruptured from an undiagnosed ectopic pregnancy. Thank goodness for modern medicine and keyhole surgery.

The recovery took quite a while and for a long time I didn’t have any energy because of all the blood loss. But I could quilt (except for the first week where I was flat on my back), and those six weeks off work gave me the time I needed to hand quilt and write the patterns for my first quilt patterns (this was in November/December last year). When I had almost recovered I started this blog (on Christmas eve 2009). So I suppose something good came of a really difficult experience.

When I had another miscarriage recently I didn’t know whether to share it with you on my blog or not. Because I hadn’t shared the good news, I felt silly sharing the bad news. I know its something many women struggle with. So, this time I’ve decided to share the good news. I’m pregnant! And I’m so happy! And I’m as sick as a dog! I saw the heartbeat on an ultrasound last week, so I feel positive this one’s a keeper! I also think the fact that I feel sick all the time and am incredibly tired means this baby is taking everything it needs to grow into a healthy little thing.

But I’m afraid quilting and blogging are just going to have to take a back seat for a little while. My quilting time (after 8pm each evening) has just turned into my bed time, and with my husband going away for work for a while it will be all I can do to manage work, the kids and the household stuff. But I’ll pop back on at the beginning of September to let you know how I’m going (I'll still be around if you want to email me in the meantime about anything).

I’ll leave you with a picture that Todd took recently of me for an upcoming magazine profile (I can tell you I don’t currently look like this – I’m a shade of green, and my eyebrows have since matted over, but I really couldn’t care less!). Happy quilting everyone!

66 comments:

  1. Congratulations! Take care of yourself and the wee one.

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  2. Oh congratulations to you! And good luck with the greenness- I was very sick, perhaps that's why my Bug's favorite colour is green? ;)

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  3. What wonderful, wonderful news! Thank you for sharing with us - you will have many, many happy thoughts and prayers coming your way. We'll look forward to hearing from you in September. Until, take care and stay green!!

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  4. Kate I so happy for you & Todd and I pray that all goes smoothly. Take care and try to rest as much as possible with 2 energetic kids. xo

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  5. Congratulations Kate! So happy for you. Take care.

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  6. Kate,

    Many congratulations and many prayers. Rest up and be healthy. I for one will be here when you come back. Enjoy your bloggy break!!!

    Blessings,

    KT

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  7. Oh Kate that's so wonderful! I'm sure it must be hard to be so hopeful after so much disappointment, but it sounds like you are really taking care of yourself. I know I'll be a paranoid freak in the beginning of my next pregnancy after my miscarriage, and it will take lots of conscious relaxation! All my best to you and that precious little one growing inside you!

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  8. Continued prayers. I'll miss you in blogland but will look forward to your return. In the meantime, do what you need to do for yourself and that little one.

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  9. Congratulations! We will miss you in blogland but understand completely - do what's best for you and the peanut and we'll see you in September! I'll be praying for you and yours!!

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  10. Hi Kate
    Congratulations on your happy news, and prayers coming your way!
    Sick is good :)

    Enjoy your resting time (I hope you get some resting time in).
    Take care.

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  11. many huge congratulations!!! i hope that you get all the rest you need and that this little one continues to grow happy and healthy

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  12. You do so still look like that photo! You are definitely a stunner!
    I am so excited for this baby! Things are certainly looking up for you guys and you deserve it! Love ya!

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  13. congrats! i am so happy for you!

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  14. Congratulations! Being pregnant was the only time in my life I looked forward to feeling like cr*p. Graham crackers were like a gift straight from God because they were the only thing I could keep down. Wishing you a happy and healthy pregnancy!

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  15. Congratulations!!!

    I hope everything goes smoothly for you guys. You are in our prayers!

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  16. I think even a tinge of green and a unibrow would look good on you, you're so gorgeous in that photo! Congratulations (on the pregnancy and magazine profile!). Sharing helps, I think. Take care & be well.

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  17. Thanks for sharing such tender news. Imagine how many warm, nurturing thoughts are coming your way, and how many heartfelt prayers are being said for you and your tiny one.

    Take good care of yourself, and we'll welcome your return when you're feeling up to it.

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  18. Good luck, Kate! I don't know where you find the courage. Serious business, this baby making!

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  19. Congratulations, what wonderful news. I am so happy for you. Take care.

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  20. congrats, kate!! what exciting news!! you are so sweet to share your story with us!

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  21. Thank you so much for sharing your struggles . . . so many women (my mom and MIL included) feel that they can't talk about their miscarriages, and I'm so grateful that women in our generation are much more open about it!

    Congrats on your pregnancy! When I was pregnant with my daughter I felt very much like you're describing . . . sick as a dog, etc, etc. Hang in there, and best wishes!!!

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  22. Sorry to hear about your losses but so pleased to hear that you are pregnant and it certainly sounds as though you feel more positive about this one. Good on you for putting your priorities in the right order and I hope everything goes well. Fingers crossed.

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  23. Congratulations! I have heard the sicker you are the better - so heres to being sick!
    Your picture is beautiful too!

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  24. Congratulations! Look after yourself - precious cargo etc!

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  25. Congratulations and thanks for sharing your story. I've just found out I'm pregnant with my first and have my scan tomorrow. Am worried sick! Tiredness and slight nausea are my constant buddies at the moment, as are the ideas for babdy quilts! Take it easy x

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  26. Congratulations!!!! Take care and enjoy it even if you are a shade of green. I hope to "see" you soon.
    I just want to add that I leke very much your quilts, my favourite are the Sea view quilt and the Gathered in quilt. Thanks for sharing.

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  27. Yay Kate - congratulations! I know I already knew, but I wanted to join in on the fun of leaving you a message here too!

    You're beautiful and strong and I know everything is going to be just great! Email me if you need me.

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  28. Congratulations Kate (& Todd of course), rest up, surely Sarah is old enough now to get dinner & put herself & Dane to bed... :) love you all xxx

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  29. Yay for you and Toddy! Can't wait to have another niece/nephew - you make such cute ones. Wish we lived closer so I could help you while you're feeling green... and you look stunning in the photo by the way. Talk to you soon.
    XOXO Amelia

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  30. I'm so sorry you've been through hard times and glad that you trusted your intuition last fall! And CONGRATS to you and the Hubby on this newest little one!

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  31. PS - What a nice photo - your hair is beautiful! And I don't remember if I commented earlier on it, but I love your new logo.

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  32. How heartbreaking to have gone through what you have gone through in trying to have a baby. I am SO happy for you that you are pregnant and that everything is going well. You will be in my prayers. Congrats!!

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  33. congrats Kate! I'm so very happy for you and wishing you and your family the very best. Look forward to hearing from you next month!

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  34. CONGRATULATIONS!! blessings and good wishes for you and your family.

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  35. Wow! I can so relate to this post. First of all -- so happy for your good news and praying for a healthy mommy and baby.

    I am so, so sorry for your recent loss and the losses previous to that one. I have only had one miscarriage, but it was an ectopic pregnancy (ruptured while I was out of town at a church woman's retreat, emergency surgery, physical weakness and depression) and still brings out strong emotions -- even many years later. My heart and prayers go out to you.

    joan

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  36. Congratulations! Wishing you all the very best. Your photo looks great.

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  37. Congrats!! I hope nothing but good things for you and your family!! We will miss you ...

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  38. Good luck - I'll be sending lots of good thoughts and prayers your way

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  39. Congratulations Kate! So happy for you. Take care.

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  40. Thank you for sharing such a personal part of your life. I know what you have been through. My first two pregnancies ended in miscarriage...however, I was 20wks with both (both boys). My last son (whom I named Christopher William) lived for 3 hours and is buried back home in Oklahoma. It was extremely difficult. Then after 13 years of trying to conceive again...couldn't. Finally I gave birth to a healthy, beautiful little girl. She was 6 weeks early, but healthy. She is now 13, more beautiful and is the joy of my life. Between my two miscarriages I adopted a baby girl who is my other joy of my life. She is having my third grandson in September.

    I have you in my prayers...I wasn't sick with my other two pregnancies, but was sick for 5 months with my little girl. So, sounds like you are on the right track!!!!

    Best wishes to you!

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  41. You have the bloom of an expectant mother .. its a lovely photo and many congrats. I feel sure everything will be well this time.

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  42. congratulations and best wishes - will be thinking of you x

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  43. Ohhh I am so with you on that one, finding myself in the same sickness position. taking over my day and night!! Do what you can, the rest will wait for you...

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  44. Congratulations! I will pray that everything will go well, blessings on you and your new little one to be!

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  45. Huge congrats Kate!
    Send you all the good luck and best wishes I can find!!!

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  46. Congratulations! Rest and be well. Growing a baby is a very serious business. We can wait for you...

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  47. I am linking over from A La Mode, but I wanted to leave to leave you blessings for a happy and healthy nine months!

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  48. So Happy for you Kate, take care and feel the love!

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  49. Congratulations! I hope you feel better...although the doctor told me that "morning sickness" is a sign that the baby is very healthy:) I just had my third child four months ago. My last two were girls, and I was so sick for the entire pregnancy. Maybe it is a girl:) I wish you a very healthy pregnancy. By the way, I love your blog...you are an amazingly, talented quilter.

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  50. Bless your heart, I hope all goes well! I will miss your blog but understand completely. Look forward to hearing from you in the near future :)

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  51. Congratulations Kate!!!! Hoping for a smooth uneventful pregnancy for you. :)

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  52. wonderful, wonderful news Kate! Congratulations!
    look after yourselves
    xxx

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  53. Congratulations and please rest as everyone has advised. You will be in my prayers everyday until we see the first picture of this sweet baby.

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  54. Congratulations!!!

    ps- You have a beautiful smile. : )

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  55. Congratulations and all the best wishes for a healthy pregnancy. I am so pleased for you both! We are all winging our prayers towards you!

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  56. Many blessings for good health and much happiness during your pregnancy!

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  57. congrats darlin... here's to a healthy baby for you & your family!! xoxoxo

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  58. Blessings to you for a healthy pregnancy! Congrats!!

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