I used to think pregnancy meant a healthy little baby nine months later, but now I know that’s not always the case. My last three pregnancies ended not long after they began, leaving me with tears of disappointment over what might have been. The one before last almost took my life. I drove myself to the hospital in the middle of the night because I just knew there was something wrong – I felt so incredibly bloated and I couldn’t sleep – and two minutes after arriving I collapsed from internal bleeding. My fallopian tube had ruptured from an undiagnosed ectopic pregnancy. Thank goodness for modern medicine and keyhole surgery.
The recovery took quite a while and for a long time I didn’t have any energy because of all the blood loss. But I could quilt (except for the first week where I was flat on my back), and those six weeks off work gave me the time I needed to hand quilt and write the patterns for my first quilt patterns (this was in November/December last year). When I had almost recovered I started this blog (on Christmas eve 2009). So I suppose something good came of a really difficult experience.
When I had another miscarriage recently I didn’t know whether to share it with you on my blog or not. Because I hadn’t shared the good news, I felt silly sharing the bad news. I know its something many women struggle with. So, this time I’ve decided to share the good news. I’m pregnant! And I’m so happy! And I’m as sick as a dog! I saw the heartbeat on an ultrasound last week, so I feel positive this one’s a keeper! I also think the fact that I feel sick all the time and am incredibly tired means this baby is taking everything it needs to grow into a healthy little thing.
But I’m afraid quilting and blogging are just going to have to take a back seat for a little while. My quilting time (after 8pm each evening) has just turned into my bed time, and with my husband going away for work for a while it will be all I can do to manage work, the kids and the household stuff. But I’ll pop back on at the beginning of September to let you know how I’m going (I'll still be around if you want to email me in the meantime about anything).
I’ll leave you with a picture that Todd took recently of me for an upcoming magazine profile (I can tell you I don’t currently look like this – I’m a shade of green, and my eyebrows have since matted over, but I really couldn’t care less!). Happy quilting everyone!